Amid Anticipations
Amid Anticipations revisits the fears and fantasies I endured throughout my youth. Growing up, I was introverted and extremely clumsy at expressing myself. I struggled with opening up to the people around me. My miscommunications caused countless misunderstandings and perceived wrongdoings. Physical and psychological repression stunted my ego. To stave off emotional outbursts, I kept myself numb and rejected intuition.
Photography accepts my frustrations. I work them out visually. My attempts are merely facades of reality that quietly exist in images. They give me goosebumps. I make photographs with strangers through unpredictable encounters; individuals suddenly show up and leave without hesitation. Their bodies, fragmented and anonymous, are vestiges of human connection. I cannot afford investing in every encounter, although I yearn to. Strangers once become friends, and eventually move on. My relationships are characterized by impermanence. A temporary gaze keeps me at ease, allowing me to be aware of my otherness. I too am a passerby with no restraints, acknowledging the boundaries of self. Now, I do not worry about the consequences. I look at the past and the present, anticipating the future, tangible only in my photographs.
2024 - Present